On Second Thought...

Will you guys let me be irrationally neurotic for a minute?

Well, the overwhelming consensus seems to be that I should go for the date with Mr. TA. I am still a little apprehensive about it, not just because he's 8 years older than me, but also because he's still my TA. Grades aren't in yet, and this date could make or break me. What if he holds it against me if I don't accept? Truth be told, I'm boderlining something serious in this class. I'm trying not to think the worst (that he's trying to get a little somethin' somethin' in exchange for giving me a good grade) but you never know with people these days. And then too, I can't help but wonder why he's interested in me. He said he thinks I'm sexy. But what else? He's a TA to over 200 students. We've had a very impersonal teacher-student relationship, except for the time I contacted him letting him know about my "extenuating circumstances". So, all he knows about me is that I'm a former victim of Depression and that I suck at Geology. What are his motives? What's the appeal? Besides my boobs, that is.

At any rate, I realize that I my over cautiousness may not be just due to fear of rapage, but also due to fear of the unknown. I've never dated a white guy, anyone this much older, and I've never been asked out like this before. I'm a little nervous just because I don't know what to expect. But alas, I know I'm only over thinking the situation, and that it's just one date. I already replied to him, so we'll see what happens. I want somebody to commit to issuing an Amber Alert because if you guys don't hear from me in a week, it's probably because he kidnapped me. And if that happens, needless to say I'm blaming y'all. For realsies.

So today I got a couple of messages on Ok Cupid, that made me rethink my Internet dating idea.

I got a message from an admittedly married dude looking for a "fuck buddy". Instead of replying, I looked at his profile. When asked what were the top six things he couldn't live without he said:

pussy, money, guns, pussy, pussy.

Oh how I hate everything.

About a half hour later, I got a message from a 44 year old guy who condescendingly asked me why I was "stalking" him:

Listen, kid, this is like the second time I've seen you stalking me. You're cute and all, but what's up?

Okay....tell me a little about yourself, and if your nice maybe I'll introduce you to my nephew. He's a great kid and about your age.

By the way, what exactly do you mean by "open minded"? That's become another of those another of those nonsense phrases.

As I mentioned before, the site shows you your stalkers--people who lurk your page but never message. Well, this dude kept winding up in my matches, which made it look like I was going to his page, but I definitely wasn't. I had to set the record straight, informing him that:

Umm, seeing as you're older than my father, I can assure you that I definitely wasn't "stalking" you. For some reason you keep coming up in my Quickmatches. I can't for the life of me figure out why. But I just hid you from my match results so problem solved! Take care, sir.

To that he replied:

HA! Gal, you are a delight!!!

I always wondered why older guys like being insulted by younger gals. ::scratches head::

Finally, I received this message:

u r a q t. wat r u doin on this site?

After taking about 30 seconds to figure out that by "u r a q t" he meant "you are a cutie", I asked myself the same question: What am I doing on this site?

He's right, I am far too fly to be solicited by married men, male chauvinists, and guys incable of writing a complete sentence. In the real world, I don't have problem meeting guys. It's just when I get down here in the boondocks that it's hard to find a man (not a horny, immature, Weezy quoting college boy) who I think suits me. Maybe my decision to e-date was a bit hasty. I'll be back in Chicagoland by this time next week. If I don't get any prospects within the first few weeks home, then I'll consider online dating again (just for the sake of shaking things up). But in the meantime, I'm hanging up my e-bow & arrow.

Even though I've encountered enough douchebaggieness to last a lifetime today, I have to say that online dating does have a lot of blogging potential. I mean, where else can you meet a guy who openly divulges that he's never been circumcised? So, though I won't be an active member, I'm not going to delete my account. I'm thinking it's just what I need to bring me out of my writers block.

Sorry Cupid

Hey lovers.

First off, I just wanted to answer a few of your questions about my TA.

Yes, he is a He. But if he was a She, I'd be equally flattered. (Experience and Gem lol)

Yes, he's attractive. Not "hawt". But cute in a nerdy kind of way.

The funny thing about it is he made sure he waited until we didn't have anymore class sessions together before he sent the message. Maybe his logic was, if I turned him down, at least he wouldn't have to see me again. I found that kind of adorable.

I didn't turn him down though. I accepted his invitation the very same day, but I have yet to hear from him. Perhaps he thought that I was rejecting him because I only accepted his offer to study but not to just "get together"...Oops.

Anyway, I'm posting today because it'll likey be the last time I do for another week or so. Finals are officially here. Ugh. The insanity started yesterday. I somehow overlooked the fact that I had a paper due. In my haste to get home and start writing it, I fell and completely busted my shit and sprang my ankle. Now I'm forced to limp around campus in addition to having to write four papers of mammoth proportions in the span of four days. ::Sigh:: The Karma Police must be out to get me.

But my main reason for posting right now is to tattle on myself about something. Last December, I made a post called Sucks to Be Cupid. It was about how the internet is ruining traditional dating rituals, and the fact that I objected to any type of online match-making. Well people, I sold out and made an online profile. ::Covers face in shame::

I don't even know what made me do it. Maybe it was all the e-Harmony/Match.com advertisements that I kept subliminally seeing in my inbox. But one night I was just up procrastinating instead of studying, and then I suddenly Googled "Online Dating". Annnnd the rest is history.

Don't get me wrong, I don't think there's anything wrong with online dating. But there is something that feels a little last resort-ish about it. For me anyway. I mean, I'm young. Just 20 years old. And for some reason, I'm having a damn hard time finding anyone I'm compatible with in real life. A mere five months ago I was talking about how online dating was the devil, and now I'm doing it. I don't know, the shift makes me feel a little weird.

But I figure it doesn't hurt to look, right? I mean, I'm not using my real name or giving out any personal info. The whole thing seems a lot safer than Facebook dating, if you ask me. In any case, if I'm approached by one creepo too many, I can easily delete the profile and call it a day. But I have to say, so far it's been pretty cool. The site has a pretty comprehensive compatibility system that matches you with people who are really like you and...Oh God, I sound like an e-Harmony commercial, don't I? O.O

Well, I just joined two days ago and have already gotten over ten messages. They even have a "Stalker" page that shows you people who've looked at your page but never messaged you. There've been about fifty of those guys. Speaking of stalkers, I posted a link to my blog on my profile (don't ask me why). I've seen a dramatic spike in my stats from people in the Chicagoland area, so a big welcome to my new Stalkers who came by way of Ok Cupid! Say hi, blog fam ^.^

Anyway, I'm going to dive into my finals now. This may be the last time you hear about my online dating endeavors, unless something exciting happens. But something tells me it wasn't the smartest idea to plug my Love and Dating blog on a Dating site. Thinking about taking it down...

So, tell me guys: Would you ever consider online dating?

p.s.

Just wanted to say that as soon as I'm done with finals, I will be doing blog rounds. I know I have LOTS of catching up to do. Especially with you, QQ. Damn you and your exciting life.

xo,
bloggal

UPDATE

So, why did I just check my email and see this???

Sydney,

I'm sorry to say that I won't be able to meet with you this week. Things got a bit crazy with my thesis here. Sorry to have extended the offer, and then go back on it.

I would like to get together though. I'm not sure how I'm coming across in my email, but I think you're really sexy. =) Do you party? We could just hang and listen to some tunes or something. There's really no better way to get to know someone than by listening to their favorite album. I'm not even sure the interest is mutual, but I hope so.

And just to get it out of the way, I'm 28.

Lemme know,
Chris

OMG! Somebody tell me what to do!!! LOL

I'm a little scuuured now that I know he's 28 though...