Thursday, January 15, 2009


Hello, dear readers! How has your week been? Mine has been pleasant, but extremely busy. I intended on writing alot sooner, but the week sort of just flew by after I made my last post. I've been finalizing my Spring schedule, getting my finances in order, and starting the FAFSA process, which is absolutely crucial if I want to go back to school in the Fall. But speaking of my last post, I just have to sincerely thank you all for your support, kind words, and encouragement. You guys have no idea how many times I cried reading your emails and comments. I wanted so badly to comment back, but I didn't know what to say. Seriously. You all literally left me speechless. So much that a simple 'thank you' wouldn't suffice.

All I can say is that you are all such amazingly wonderful people and I'm so appreciative to have you in my life. Your inspiring comments keep me going when I want to give up, they give me hope when I'm close to losing it, and they reassure me when I'm in doubt. I wrote that post because, since I was in the process of cleansing the toxins in my body (I'll come back to that), I thought it was time to cleanse the toxins in my heart and soul as well. In writing that letter to my emotional and physical abusers, I was hoping to free myself from the resentment and animosity I feel towards them. And you know something? It actually helped. Though it'll take me some time to entirely forgive them, it felt good to "directly" address them and tell them how I feel.

So, you guys may or may not be wondering how my Master Cleanse went. I'm quite proud to say that I successfully completed it! I honestly thought I was going to fall off a few times, which was why I didn't want to keep a day to day diary lol, but I never did. I stuck it out and I feel better than ever. My energy level is crazy high, and I feel lighter, healthier, and more alert. I purposely didn't weigh myself before the cleanse because I didn't want it to be about weightloss. But I will say I definitely dropped some pounds and inches, and I can't complain about that. I won't go into the gritty details, but I really suggest that everyone does at least a five day cleanse twice out of the year, because you'd be surprised what accumulates in our bodies after a year of malnutrition and abuse. It's not unsafe likes some people think, but a very beneficial detox and I definitely recommend it. I'm not saying it wasn't difficult because, trust me, it was a mental challenge. But if you have the discipline and motivation, it's definitely worth it.

This will probably be the last entry I make until Sunday, when I move back into my dorm, unless something significant goes down. I can't WAIT to get back to my own computer and privacy. Once I'm back at school, I promise to post more often. It's just been a little tough considering my limited internet access.

Soooo, check out my new tattoo:

Just got it today! I absolutely LOVE it. I made in entry a while back about it's meaning but I'll copy and paste it again:

It's called a Cho Ku Rei:

Cho – full

Ku – ceremonial vessel

Rei – transcended mystery, Holy Spirit or Universal Life Force

Its literal translation is: Put the power of the Universe here. The symbol is used to command and attract all of the positive energy in the Universe.

It's on my left wrist, if you can't tell. What's crazy is I actually got this tattoo for free! This guy who's apprenticing and trying to build a portfolio sent my mom a message on Myspace (yes, Myspace) saying that he'd tattoo her for free in exchange for a photo for his portfolio. We thought it was a bogus offer but it turned out to be legit so we went in and he hooked me up! He also touched up my tattoo on my right wrist for free as well.

Pretty awesome, right? It's really crazy how perfect the timing was. I had planned on getting the tattoo during this break but couldn't for lack of funds. And then out of nowhere, this guy contacts my mom the very day my cleanse ended. I knew I couldn't NOT get the Cho-Ku-Rei.

Anyway, I just want to thank you all again for being so supportive. You don't know how much I appreciate each and every single one of you.

Loads of Love,



Anonymous said...

Kudos for the cleansing, Syd! Takes resolve, and apparently you got dat. Haven't done that in a looooong time myself, so thanks for the healthy reminder (smile)

Cool tattoo too.

Anonymous said...

Well Ms. Lady you are certainly welcome!

Congrats on the Master Cleanse. It sounds like such a good idea, but if I drop pounds, I'll be in double digits. Can't do it. Lol.

Anonymous said...

i'm glad to hear the cleanse was a success. (i'm interested in the gritty details, but anyway, lol)
i would be interested in a cleanse but i also would be in danger of the double digits. (i wish i had some thickness)

Torrance Stephens - All-Mi-T said...

y thank u for calling me wondeful, and like the tats folk
have a great weekend

Brothers Blog said...

funny we make these comments on blogs and the stuff that people are goin through. And we say them to just be encouraging, but never really know how much they truly appreciate it and that it helps them. So I must say you're more than welcome.

Glad you took the first step in that healing process.

and congrats on finishing the cleansing.

Nice tat btw.

clnmike said...

The Tats look great.

Anonymous said...

OOOHH I LOVES your new Ink This is all pretty perfect how it all wrapped nicely for you I am truly happy you are feeling the blessings and some peace!

Hugs and kisses and always always member when the going get's bitch: My email and phone are always there even just to listen you bitch or gain perspective, Ok!?!

strangetimes said...

I love the tattoos. I've always debated whether or not I should get one or two, but I've hestitated in taking the plunge. I want to make sure that whatever I get done on my body will still remain meaningful to me 10, 20, 50 years down the road.

Congradulations on completing the Master Cleanse with flying colours and exceptional results. LOL - I am proud of you.

Everybody who reads this blog will always be there for you, no matter what.

Anyway, I am about to head out and see Notorious. I hope it's a good movie.

Miss Moody said...

You have inspired me. After you allowed yourself to be so vulnerable with the letters, I thought I might give it a shot. I have some "unfinished business" that causes me to think about things and people and circumstances probably more often than I should. I'm not sure if I'll make it a blog or just write it out to get it out.

I will admit, I was against the Master Cleanse when you first blogged about it, but I'm glad it worked for you.


Tuotierugif >^..^<© said...

I like the tat, actually I love it given that it has meaning! ;)

karrie b. said...

awesome ink!!! glad you're back and feeling better. this is the 1st happy post ive seen from you in a minute. yay! im happy now...


Charles said...

I hope this upcoming semester is great for you.

That cleansing? Don't think I could do it...

Your tat kinda looks like a treble clef...which I like, and I definitely like the meaning behind it.

Hope you're doing great Syd!!

Coogie Cruz said...

Cute tatts!

I am starting the Master Cleanse tomorrow actually but just for 4-5 days. I hope I can stick with it. Working with kiddies might make it hard because they run me ragged most days.

Glad you're feeling better and being more positive about things.

Bloggal said...

@ marvin: hey man! thanks for stopping by my blog:)

@ robin and real talk: LMAO! i had to read your comments twice over to realize that you meant single digits in weight. In the words of Flava Flav: Woooow. hahaha...

@ brothers blog: blog fam is second best to real fam. i don't care how lame i sound saying that either.

@ mike: thanks!

@ qq: thanks so much for being there momma. one day soon i'm gonna stop hiding behind text and give you a call. count on it!

@ strange times: thanks, glad you like the! you know, permanence doesn't freak me out as much as it used to. i'm okay with these tattoos being on my body for the rest of my life. the meanings give me strenght.

@ miss moody: so glad to know that my words touched you in a way that will help you sweety! that's what blog fam is for:)

@ tgif: thanks!

@ karrie: glad you like it! and i know, my blog posts lately have been a little depressing, haven't they? lol. well, things are definitely looking up for me so my writing should reflect that.

@ charles: hey charles! where've you been man? i'm doing pretty decent. going back to school tomorrow so we'll see how the semester goes...and thanks!

@ coogie cruz: go for it girl!!! no matter how many days you do it, you're going to feel much better. i guarentee it. just makes sure you follow the ingredients exactly. i tried to cheat and use concentrated lemon juice instead of freshly lemons and i definitely felt the difference. getting the fresh ingedients is more expensive but definitly worth it.

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