So, I don't think I have to wait a full 6 days for the poll to be over because it seems pretty unanimous; I'm changing my url. I guess it's for the best, but I honestly don't want to do it. I love my url lol. I was actually planning on buying the domain and everything. To be honest, I'm not worried that I'll censor my writing now that I know Ex is reading because he and I aren't together anymore. I know he couldn't care less about whether or not I'm sleeping with someone else. I'm more uncomfortable about the fact that everything I've ever written--all the things I wrote in moments of sadness, anger, or pain--will always be there for him to refer to. They are hurtful words that may have been true at some point, but aren't now. And I don't want to delete that stuff because, well, it is my story. I learned a great deal from all of my experiences with him, and I don't want to erase the past. But I guess my hands are kind of tied on this one so, I'm going to just do what needs to be done.
As for Ex and I, we talked about things. We made up in the best way we know how, and I think we're okay for the most part. Except for the fact that I know he'll never confide in me again. But all I can do is apologize and not dwell too much. After today, you won't hear anymore about this drama. Cause I know I do have the tendency to obsess lol.
Since I don't want to lose my readers, I'm going to try to make this change as unnoticeable as possible. Please leave your email address as a comment (or email it to me: firstname.lastname@example.org) so that I can send you the url when I finally do change it. I'll make the official change next Wednesday. Hopefully, by then everyone who regularly stops by will have left there addresses and won't miss out on the move. Until then, I guess I'll have to just deal with the awkwardness for a while...ugh.
Hopefully by Monday I'll be less weird about all this because, honestly, it is kind of getting to me. Anyway, enjoy your weekends!